name: Raphiology
age: twentytwo
gender: male
d.o.b: 16.04.86
email: #######
SHITTOKNOWABOUTME.
Im a difficult person thats just it,If u get in my good books i always gotcha back.Love is not my priority but friendship is much more.
I love music. Im a guy who appreciates real rhymes,music esp "Real" hiphop.I keep my music to a real life basis, and touch upon alot of deep issues and concepts.
This blog was originally for my lyrics and then i ended up talking about my life since i dont write that much.So basicaly this is where i express my thoughts especially in rhyme form.This is only a personal blog so dont expect me to write amazing,interesting and intellectual stuffs.
I hafta admit i have been moody all day there are just a lot of things in my head and i cant figure out what. Then i know,one of the things maybe not all.... is because im sad that real hiphop lives underground. Nobody really listens to real music these days, im sick of talking about this but its the truth. Life's fucked me up over and over but i keep coming back, everytime i feel like the world's droppin on me i will always listen to good songs.. really, music fucken heals the soul. Tonedeff, has the greatest flow ive ever heard in my life, just feel like adding that. <3
Oh yeah before i start talking about my tirin week, just wanna let ya'll know ive updated my soundclick after abandoning it for ages. I also wrote the lyrics back and added it on the songs info, since i lost my hard drive...i mean the bits of my life. So anyways ive been actively exercising this week i figure out its really a good time to start being active and fit again since i have nothing better to do than going online.So what else? hmmmm. School's great.. exam's coming and im not ready yet? i dont think ill ever be. Life? Not so great.. but its treatin me just aight but now i dont feel like wasting it anymore. Im not gna let something slip thru my fingers again. Cause when it seems that things are going on a splendid lead, the ending will always turn negatively. I just hope this one is different =) Ive tested life, sipped it abit, Ripple it abit and saw a shimmery of me. aint nothing that bitters my tongue so do you reallly think that im the kinda guy who regret when i shredded my promises?.. u know i dont make promises. you should know that.
Finally an update that u guys prolly wont understand and dont bother to comprehend. Im off to bed.
I know this is sudden but like i said ive decided to give this blog a life,once more. before i start updating you with my boring life,i just wanna say selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.i find it amusing though that people only ask for forgiveness when raya comes maybe raya is where they can find the reason to do so. so sorry if theres anything ive said and done that hurt or caused you any offence.
I really dont know where to start here. before,i asked myself when is my life going to settle down.. now that my life's settling down i totally forgot about this blog. so a lil update here, i dont know if i ever mentioned about me working as an IT support under KHEU, but yeah worked for a year and got enrolled in MTSSR taking computer studies. made a lot of friend, meet alot of crazy people and went to jakarta twice. thats how much things that happened.
I know syawal is supposed to be a happy month but i dont know i just cant feel it,ive totally lost the raya vibe! i didnt even help this year,i went out at night the whole week..was busy with assignments and project and i thought my mom would understand but she mistake me for lepaking and not helping at all.I was like ok... its not that i'm going to celebrate raya anyways..on first day of raya i wasnt going to wake up but then i said to myself lets not ruin this raya for my family's sake and my grandparents<3. i never missed visiting to their place every years so why start now.If yu read my previous posts about raya, ull know im not the raya type of guy and i still cant explain this to anyone who asked me that question but one thing they shud know is that i am not EMO. t(-_\\\)t
so ill be updating this blog once in a while. i missed college life and im really happy to be back in school again. <3
this is me tryin to start everythin from scratch,i dont know if i can reach to where the point i left-off. having my hard disk died where i basically 'keep' my life at is much more worse than breakin' up. So i would like to show my appreciation to the technician who obviously know nothing but shiet and the owner of NETSZONE .... THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR NOT FIXIN' IT BUT MAKIN' IT WORSE,I SWEAR TO GOD YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME OR MY FAMILY OR MY GENERATIONS STEPPIN THERE AGAIN,EVER AGAIN.I lost everythin' from all my tracks, research, documents, pictures and not to mention my collection of fine p0rns =( motherfuckers!!
I really have nothin to begin with here..but aaaa im tryin to start writing back here after so long and hopefully i will do just aight. one could lose their touch but can always get it back if its in one's heart. WOSEH baie!! kan jadi preacher ku eh.. anyways i was goin through all my backups from my sister's hardisk and found an not so old lyric i wrote. so aku simpan lah sja sini since that is what this blog is all about, aint no personal shiet in here *yea ryte*.I dont know what i was thinkin' when i wrote this,i didnt even know what shiet i was listenin' to.. but seems like i was puttin much thoughts into it especially on the last few lines.Who gives a fuck anyway.. cheers.
a couple of times already im certain with these feelings i may trick myself but i will never learn how to like how to love,will never learn how to be happy in this life today im givin' it a fullstop -- tomorow im gna start fresh cut the sweet,cut the words,the flirt time to rehash Im chasing these dreams where sanity and ashamed crashed no chances of "us" in the future from what ive seen Im either in pain or in pleasure,aint no in between I decided to stand again where i first stood shes not in the picture how i wish she was simply tearin through ever since that im always scared of changes the only time when i can be myself is when im around strangers never wanna try something new -- left with used-to-bes a pack of memories ended with goodbyes and sealed with a kiss as a normal guy who likes to have fun - im meant to be hurt i will go through all the pain just aight - im a man of my word
A fast update to everyone. I just like to express my deepest condolence to nana and her family, on the demise of her little sister. Al-fatihah.. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatnya..I'm not going to say i know how she feels because i seriously dont and i never lost someone close(family) in my life but nana ...just wanna let you know that my thoughts are with you, in your time of sorrow. I wish you the strength you need to go through this hard time and u always know that i'll always be there for you anytime and anywhere and i will always have time for you.
Dear life,i know i promised i wouldnt write to you anymore sorry i lied. Just don't know who to talk to anymore, failed every attempts on every confessions. I ought to have a dairy and let the world read it after i died. In my life i got so many stories to tell with very few to share with. dear life, i feel like all the memories i have starting to fade away.. starting the day when i slowly turn my back on you. are you back to test me? ...
Thuth is i'm OKAY but you know only liars start with truth is. I know u don like me but i say fuck life, fuck the world and everything in it. Just because i don't wanna live the way you want me to u must think i'm a badman, just because i dont wana live with emotions u must think i'm a badman. Oh dear life i think u got me wrong here, i'm just tired and with that i unexpectedly let go of things when u know that i don't have the energy to even hold on to it. So now lets make things easy for me, My weeks have been really hard lately with so many things happening all at once and i still cant see any goods coming on my way.
Dear life i cant bear this pain anymore, so let go of me and tell sorry to the past,the future and to the others. Give life to the one who deserves it, i know i don't so ill face you but just go easy on me, give me a reason to stay sane. I know i made alot of mistakes but thats just mistakes i have to live with.
Currently listenin to hari raya tracks *eseh semangat*
Im not much of a raya guy, the past years sucked alot. I stayed home most of the time waiting for guests but i wanna change all that this year, i wanna be the slave to open houses! a slave to tapak kuda and kueh mor! yeap thats what yew should be doing if yew fast for a full month(right!)
I once said that i quit playing CS competitevly but then the last few weeks ive been practicing with my old teammates, for tomorow's tournament.. i dont know what brings me back i really wanted to quit but i guess yew cant just give up for the thing u love and obviously good at. i hate the fact that the tourney will be tomorow and Gadong will be jammed and packed with people buying things and whatver-they-should be doing before raya comes. What i really want to buy is sitat(The big ones!) and oh yeah badil!! crazy bang yaw! imma make it bang so crayzeeeh!
Oh TK is now the hotspot if u wanna hang out at night these days. I went there with xit and some friends last night.. i came late and i texted her "mana kamu duduk yaw , aku kabur ni mata ku" and she replied "if ko turun di bawah ada tu sebalah kiri ujung" and i was like BAWAH? hahaa.. table was right next to the river and the view is kinda nice =) reminds me of putrajaya. Not really much happened lately other than being broke for playing cs much and yeah ive been getting the same question whether i stil make tracks or not.. to tell u the truth why wud someone stop doing for something they love and the real reason is my laptop is stil on coma. Now im using my new lappy so if i wanna make tracks with this lappy i hafta start from scratch that will take me like months to gather all the materials , so yeah! im stil waiting for baby(laptop) reincarnation.
Happy fasting everyone,i feel like today seems to be a good day to start blogging again after missing for quite a while. yeap i need this to kill time cos sungkai is hours away. not that im hungry or anything.. puasa was never a hard time for me, the only thing why people find it hard is because they smoke.
Before i write any longer and before i forgot to mention this, i wanna say happy birthday to Btc and everyone invovled. i remember four years back we were only kids who like to have fun and hang out selling faces and do stupid things. When i look at what we are now, there are just too many changes in 4 years.. alot of new bradas and sistas.. we became a real family. To the very few who started this all,i will not forget the ups and downs we've been togther. thats brotherhood and thats for eternity, we'r not a group we'r a family and we'r all about love and respect. Its that simple we'r just people packed together with the same interests and thoughts.
Im going to post something new..Today im going to teach yew how to get someone to strip for yew! I will only be covering a few steps its quite simple if yew ask me... kira aku pro lah. Ok lets get started...
First step : Give hint(s)
As yew can see on the screenshot my hint was "Smart jua katil mu ah. Balum belimpangi tu eh"
Second step : Have a normal conversation but keeps him/her entertained.
Third step : Make him/her laugh to your jokes. yang penting ko becali lah.
Fourth step : Control macho. This is important so make sure yew give your killer pose!
For example click on the picture.
Final step : (runding!)Shooot it! go direct .. if he/she gets angry use the "block" option,it was made for a reason.
Ok hope yew guys mendapat hasil =) if yew wanna read more of my articles/guides or whatever yew wanna call it,yew can get it from the book store. PEASH!
Note : NO, i dont have a webcam and NOPE thats not me.. my twin brother tu. OK PEASH!
Bored and listening to Andra & The BackBone - Sempurna.mp3
MY LIFE. =)
.... hear me ....
Dear life, I hate yew i hate everything yew brought into me. I am going to kill myself,slit my wrists and if that fails i will jump off the building. I hate yew for giving me insomnia, I dont feel special anymore. Im not normal! My friends started calling me names like vampire and owl. I feel so sad i wish i was someone else.
WHATSUP!!? I cant fucken sleep,tucked myself on bed and got lost in thoughts for a couple of minutes and figured that i wont be sleeping anytime soon soooo here i am, BLOGGING! Ya'll prolly have a warped mind that when im bloggin that means something is playing on my mind, I have a few ways of letting things go away.. one is blogging others are like running,singing and drinking(hewhehwhewh JK). I dont really write on this blog anymore..personal life is just plain shiet but i still write on others site like DominusProject and some other sites that doesnt concern yew.
I cant believe the fact that im twentytwo now,gila kali tua wah tu :( and like i always said "I dont wanna be old and i still want my rents to tell me that im not fit for the outdoors and i still want to see myself through their eyes" I havent been writing any music lately,getting rusty and other things are always on my way. Making myself occupied when i dont want to AND yew know what bothers me lately!! My msn is full with sad people and not to mention their sad nicks :'( "think" of how it would turned me so deep down. IM CONFUSED! why do people wanna get emotionally involved with feelings that someday somehow will find their own ways into our lives. Nya my mommy.. sedih usah di cari fiee..pandai tu dtg sendiri nanti. im not saying im a big truth of the world but ive seen and known enough to tell me what life's all about.
... hear me ...
Dear life, My morning has turned chill and things are abit better after i let it out. In trouble again with my bed,My bed hits me again i cant remember what for. Maybe for falling asleep on my computer desk. My bed just misscalled me and she said she misses me and wants me now. Im going now and i wont write to yew ever again. I hate yew life. bye
Happy mother's day to my favorite girl ~my mommy~ Thanks for all the things that yew have done for me. I know i might be your accepetedrejected son but i know deep inside your heart im your favorite jua. nda ja ma?aku anak mama yang paling kewl. All my life she always said yes to me,agreed with everything and always on my side that's why im a spoilt brat(eseh bangga). She never made my life feels like a prison .. she always let me run free and let me out with my own thoughts. She let me see the world with my own eyes and let me see what this naive kid could have caught by his own. Ive grown to my very best ma~ I know yew expected more from me but this is all i can give yew, we all mistake yew as the happy go lucky but i know your heart cried. im sorry if i keep messing on things but yew know that i always love you. happy mother's day ma.
Its been a crazy week.. ive just had my interview 2hours ago. I sat on the same lab where i sat last year. Different people and different faces i see them got lost in thougths. Probably thinkin about how to answer the questions, I tried to calm myself down seeing the no.1 card the senior gave me. I said to myself "ill be first to give them the first impression of me and ill be the first to leave AND SAMBUNG TDOR PATANG WOHOOOOO" In my mind i just wanna get home ASAP, i dont want people to see me wearing smart and looking so decent especially my FRIENDS, they'll definitely laugh at me and spread news faster than CNN. I am just not cut out for that lollll no earings,short hair,shirt tucked in? doesnt fit me at all but what can i do? you only get one chance for your first impression.
I think i shud be going now, my mom and aunties are celebrating mother's day at my granny's place. Ya know family gathering..i just cant keep myself away from food...barbeque chicken and cakes! PEACE OUT A-TOWN! and zi~ goodluck with your performance =)
Im bored and i dont know what to blog about. i just wanna remind my dominus friends jangan lupa saturday night ani bbq makan kambing! WAWAWA. lets eat pork.. i mean lamb chop until we get nosebleed! Bah i guess that's all .. kan shopping lagi. peace out.
I went out for dinner last night at excapade with my friends. org atu di bawa inda mau.. naleh nya. I was totally fulled with raw food and my friend naz kept ordering for me "yang ani nyaman ni" "yang atu nyaman tu" so i was like bah layan its your treat anyways. so basically i dont know what i was eating yang penting aku kanyang. thanks to mazran and naz for the treat. we had fun.
Im super tired but i cant put myself to sleep. I ran 5km and play streetball for 2hours ..im tired and totally dehydrated but still i cant sleep Probably because its my birthday. Im thinking alot of things now.. sad and happy things at the same time.
Thanks to the people who texted me even if its only a few people,I expected more. Thanks jua to the people who greeted me through MSN, The one who called me and say happy birthday and Thanks berabisly to my dominus friends for the birthday surprise. Oh yeah not to mention a group of guys who oftenly lepak at SS.. thanks guys for the shisha and the song! HAHAH. spontaneous. It wasnt much..but it was the greatest birthday i ever had.
Before i blew the candles i made a wish(duh.. obviously). Yatahkan... my friends asked me what did i wish for, I said i wished that our friendship stays forever and hope that i get a better life. I watched this movie called Saving private ryan just now and that movie made me wanna live my life to the fullest. HAHAHA gila cian yo. "earn it..earn this" lol. classic eh. My point is.. im getting old,i missed alot things and im not doing what im supposed to do at this age. Im just not the guy who'd say "Been there done that" when you talk about things, im so way back.
Bah i guess thats all. Im gonna try to sleep right now. And oh yeah about the sad things i mentioned.. i expected someone to msg me.. someone who have missed 3years of my birthday and my birthday always remind me of someone's birthday,My late friend who used to be in my group WOTS (The aprils guys!!) bday kami semua april hehe except for c sam..and yeah his birthday is coming =) Bah okies. Selamat pagi kawan! Tdor dlu. Nanti ku upload gambar cake ku. Cute yo. 2 small cakes. HAHAHA.
Lagu yang ku buat di mlm buang boring! :D and before you girls jump on conclusion ... NO! i am not like that. Aku budak baik just ignore the lyrics tq. mwahs. and if yooure using 56k or ur connection is somehow slow aga my soundclick page, stream the song from there using lo-fi. cheers.
Raphi - Earth girls come here
[Intro] Ok ima take this one slow so you girls can cope up
[Verse 1] I purposely ruin girls life biar durang jara And See them fall on the same shit baie inda ketara Observe from head to toes,left nothing to adventure see em labeled "tapped" if you plan to take them for a ride I dont trick on chicks but got tricks up my sleeve They know where the doors and windows at incase they wanna leave girls are like eggs squeeze em hard it wont break But if u Take a good knock you got em botty to shake Im far from changing so remind your girls twice Or else they be running my place doing excercise I dont jog i burn calories every damn nights I sweat the most showing them ur man aint doing it right I keep my eyes open looking for girls snang di runding And let them jadi perasan thought we're having a thing Some played along some Leave notes with x's and o's Some fell in love some slide up down the rainbows
[cHORUS]2X Earth girls come here (Ok im comin) Raffy's about to pull that pants down now Show me whatchu got there (down here?) Stop me wondering,lets get down right now
[Verse 2] Lay down now while i explain my policy I only take pretty,rich,cute,yummy and busty
(Ok lemme make things clear here..i dont take ugly aight)
Im the hardest man in town,the only last one standing You thought you had enough of fun,where all the fun missin If you wanna play hard to get - play harder This is kz you dealing with you might wanna moan louder louderrr loudeerrr Ever since i met that hyprocrite ever since i got played I musta admit its hard to start belivin girls again But look at me now,Leaving every guys' dream Scoring chicks their bfs probably find dirt on their skirt Dont hate me blame youself for not treating ya girls right Im just here to fix up things to save you some fights And for as much as they complain to me,im loving it yo Its plain truth,the only thing i care is getting down tonight
[cHORUS]2X
[outro] Alryte alryte.. i know that sounds cocky But thats how kewl guys sound tryna score chicks
Thought i could live without you~ its gonna hurt when it heals too~ Hahaha lawa lagu leona lewis. boring hari ani nadakan di buat bangun tdor trs kana marah sal inda sembahyang jummat. Currently working on two songs "Earth girls come here" and "different struggles" and im trying to keep things in it position. i wanna do a part time job, i got offered as a software technician 2 days ago and im planning on taking it if dapat.. cos aku mau bali turntables XDDD mun ku gtau mama ku "ma minta 2ribu kan bali turntables" confirm kana bomb.
If kan balikan bleh jua.. Technics SL-1210 MK2 sama pioneer mixer sekali k since my birthday's coming =)) sama keyboard sekali so i can make a mini studio in my room XDDD. i received emails from a friend last night and i find it interesting so imaa share it with whoever's reading this. Ok ill start with the cute and funny animals pics. Just copy and paste the link on your adreess bar ok i dont wanna flood my blog with photos .. lagging sudah buii inda 56k friendly ah.
Im not really in a mood to blog,not in a mood for anything actually.So ill just get straight to the point..here's a song i made for 2days and props to Mister KA production for the beats,its lovely. Ya know there are times when i dont feel appreciated,to me fallin in love was never a great thing. People keep looking for the perfect ones when nobody's perfect but for me im just trying to make things work here and hope i'd see some efforts for a reply. I really dont wanna regret writing this im not expecting good endings i never do..fuck the future promises..we'r gambling,enuf said. Just a happy song with alot of thoughts wrote down in it. 3rd verse is empy feel free to spit on it. Enjoy!
Raphi - Easier said
[Verse1] This all started with this girl i met i forgot where My heart started to smile its time to get a pair Im bad at love expressing but listen to this song It tells you how my life means nothing when everything goes wrong She thought she had took the hardest path when we met girl how can you give up on me when we havent started yet When ur around you loseen me up but tighten my blood vessels Thanks god for sending me one of your best angels She wears tight jeans and cute teees obviously i observe I cant stop day dreaming you ma sweetest curse They say only one sperm cell survives out of a millions I say ill survive millinons obstacles even there's no options When we kissed i feel a connection that no one cant explain Now kiss me again cause its ur kiss that keeps me sane You the kinda girl that makes a guy act frantic,run panic Ignore logics and let them see magics before tragics
[Verse2] Yeah you know its pretty hard for me to say the word i love you But u know its easier said if i just sing for you You are everything that i wish for and its coming true Nothing's gonna change that,i will neva feel blue Aside from loving you i love lookin the way u smile Like an angel and to me ur worth walk a thousand miles i love to see that funny faces when i make a joke Laugh and grow old together,let them say we the happy folks We either finish or we dont,screw what the prophecy tells Ya know love is magic and i dont care what the agony feels A guy like me needs a girl like you on average nights Its when karma hits sutra two lovers get the knowledge right Dont get me wrong i like you im just not good with speech But im not an anti-lover and yaknow sweettalkers are just cheap I used to fight love with heavy shield i stand guard Now I hand you my sword Now i hand you my heart (so keep it!)
These are the wallpapers i made using photoshop and a few brushes i downloaded. Pretty kewl =D im not saying im creative but i get a little bit of it when im bored and abit thoughtful when im depressed.
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