I got lost in thoughts

Saturday, December 29, 2007

What keeps me playing this game? First of all because its my hobby and i had nothing better to do.

And the real reason i play this game is because one day i suck and another day im godlike. It is the missing element that makes me pushing again tomorow. Its not like any other games where you can master it to the point of it being repetitious. Cs needs skill,knowledge aim and when you play its all in your brain. Basically there is no end to this game there is no final boss, There arent enemies that comes after you simply because you walked through a doorway or walked over a trigger~ Being so unpredictable makes it fun and its a new game every time i play it. This is that one game where you need much more than just skill and practice to evolve and improve.

The fun.... ? always is.

And now its time for me to quit playing this game competitvely.
But i'll still play this game because its in my heart =D

-LANrejects . KickiN'xj
-eLeNeX.

10:54 AM...Raphiology

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Friday, December 14, 2007

is the grass greenier on the other side?

Last night was crazy but im not gonna start talking about what happened because what happened last night stayed last night...err apakan? I love my friends to bit!!! a friend once said "kawan adalah umpama air" whatever that means but it make sense you just cant survive without it maybe you can live without it 2-3 days but not more than that. when i hate dealing with feelings friends is what i seek..friendship is my most priority like i always said when u get in my books i always gotcha back.

Ok most people post their everyday's life, thats how they blog but me nothing much really happened in a day so i cant post like that. i prefer waitin like 2-3 weeks and summrize everything that happened within that time. so here goes....

its true when you lose one you gain more.
its true when the hope is gone,life is a lonelier place.

how can i be occupied to so many stuffs and the next thing i know i got nothing to do,nothing at all. i might say this has been a busy month with so many things happened. Cs tournament just ended a week ago and we placed 4th or 5th. we could have placed much better but you know how things are in cs. i lost hope and i feel freedom at the same time,ive answered all the question marks and ive answered all the thoughts. it feels safe to say those 3 little words again after so long...but for now im just trying to get 'the group' back! i have nothing more to say so ill just let the lyric talks.

i got bored a few days ago so i ended up writing something.

As i came a feet away from her back i took a deep breath.
Then i walked to her and tapped her shoulder
I asked "Is this seat taken?" I smiled and i showed her life.
One day She stabbed me on the back slapped me in the face twice
Love hates me and i hate love.. its bad past, dont ask.
Lets call it pain instead of love and lets go get that
Just when i thought it stopped she came back for another go
Some more excruating pain but what doesnt kill you only make u strong
Betting on your last chip only getting yourself scarred
I looked deep into her heart and this TIME i looked hard
Hope to find indication of truth and i found lies
It was her game and i just played along as a loverboy in disguise
All you want is a flawless life,no other vices as we live
Thats aint life as we know it all ya have to do is keep forget and forgive
What im trying to say here is you cant find the perfect one
But u can always find someone and try to make it work

so ima try to make it work. =) cheers! bye.

8:34 PM...Raphiology

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