: Raphiology :

Cant fight your war till im finished with mine.

2009-10-20T00:59:00.002+08:00

Listenin' to one of Cunninlynguist's songs.

I hafta admit i have been moody all day there are just a lot of things in my head and i cant figure out what. Then i know,one of the things maybe not all.... is because im sad that real hiphop lives underground. Nobody really listens to real music these days, im sick of talking about this but its the truth. Life's fucked me up over and over but i keep coming back, everytime i feel like the world's droppin on me i will always listen to good songs.. really, music fucken heals the soul. Tonedeff, has the greatest flow ive ever heard in my life, just feel like adding that. <3

Oh yeah before i start talking about my tirin week, just wanna let ya'll know ive updated my soundclick after abandoning it for ages. I also wrote the lyrics back and added it on the songs info, since i lost my hard drive...i mean the bits of my life. So anyways ive been actively exercising this week i figure out its really a good time to start being active and fit again since i have nothing better to do than going online.So what else? hmmmm. School's great.. exam's coming and im not ready yet? i dont think ill ever be. Life? Not so great.. but its treatin me just aight but now i dont feel like wasting it anymore. Im not gna let something slip thru my fingers again. Cause when it seems that things are going on a splendid lead, the ending will always turn negatively. I just hope this one is different =) Ive tested life, sipped it abit, Ripple it abit and saw a shimmery of me. aint nothing that bitters my tongue so do you reallly think that im the kinda guy who regret when i shredded my promises?.. u know i dont make promises. you should know that.

Finally an update that u guys prolly wont understand and dont bother to comprehend. Im off to bed.

Happy eid mubarak.

2009-09-23T23:15:00.004+08:00

I know this is sudden but like i said ive decided to give this blog a life,once more. before i start updating you with my boring life,i just wanna say selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.i find it amusing though that people only ask for forgiveness when raya comes maybe raya is where they can find the reason to do so. so sorry if theres anything ive said and done that hurt or caused you any offence.

I really dont know where to start here. before,i asked myself when is my life going to settle down.. now that my life's settling down i totally forgot about this blog. so a lil update here, i dont know if i ever mentioned about me working as an IT support under KHEU, but yeah worked for a year and got enrolled in MTSSR taking computer studies. made a lot of friend, meet alot of crazy people and went to jakarta twice. thats how much things that happened.

I know syawal is supposed to be a happy month but i dont know i just cant feel it,ive totally lost the raya vibe! i didnt even help this year,i went out at night the whole week..was busy with assignments and project and i thought my mom would understand but she mistake me for lepaking and not helping at all.I was like ok... its not that i'm going to celebrate raya anyways..on first day of raya i wasnt going to wake up but then i said to myself lets not ruin this raya for my family's sake and my grandparents<3. i never missed visiting to their place every years so why start now.If yu read my previous posts about raya, ull know im not the raya type of guy and i still cant explain this to anyone who asked me that question but one thing they shud know is that i am not EMO. t(-_\\\)t

so ill be updating this blog once in a while. i missed college life and im really happy to be back in school again. <3

Raph.

Back to square one.

2009-01-21T00:37:00.006+08:00

wassap fellas,

this is me tryin to start everythin from scratch,i dont know if i can reach to where the point i left-off. having my hard disk died where i basically 'keep' my life at is much more worse than breakin' up. So i would like to show my appreciation to the technician who obviously know nothing but shiet and the owner of NETSZONE .... THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR NOT FIXIN' IT BUT MAKIN' IT WORSE,I SWEAR TO GOD YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME OR MY FAMILY OR MY GENERATIONS STEPPIN THERE AGAIN,EVER AGAIN.I lost everythin' from all my tracks, research, documents, pictures and not to mention my collection of fine p0rns =( motherfuckers!!

I really have nothin to begin with here..but aaaa im tryin to start writing back here after so long and hopefully i will do just aight. one could lose their touch but can always get it back if its in one's heart. WOSEH baie!! kan jadi preacher ku eh.. anyways i was goin through all my backups from my sister's hardisk and found an not so old lyric i wrote. so aku simpan lah sja sini since that is what this blog is all about, aint no personal shiet in here *yea ryte*.I dont know what i was thinkin' when i wrote this,i didnt even know what shiet i was listenin' to.. but seems like i was puttin much thoughts into it especially on the last few lines.Who gives a fuck anyway.. cheers.

a couple of times already im certain with these feelings
i may trick myself but i will never learn
how to like how to love,will never learn how to be happy in this life
today im givin' it a fullstop -- tomorow im gna start fresh
cut the sweet,cut the words,the flirt time to rehash
Im chasing these dreams where sanity and ashamed crashed
no chances of "us" in the future from what ive seen
Im either in pain or in pleasure,aint no in between
I decided to stand again where i first stood
shes not in the picture how i wish she was simply tearin through
ever since that im always scared of changes
the only time when i can be myself is when im around strangers
never wanna try something new -- left with used-to-bes
a pack of memories ended with goodbyes and sealed with a kiss
as a normal guy who likes to have fun - im meant to be hurt
i will go through all the pain just aight - im a man of my word

Spank meh? :p Ok not funny.

how sometimes we wish we could reverse times.

2009-01-06T18:04:00.006+08:00

Sup ya'll

A fast update to everyone. I just like to express my deepest condolence to nana and her family, on the demise of her little sister. Al-fatihah.. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatnya..I'm not going to say i know how she feels because i seriously dont and i never lost someone close(family) in my life but nana ...just wanna let you know that my thoughts are with you, in your time of sorrow. I wish you the strength you need to go through this hard time and u always know that i'll always be there for you anytime and anywhere and i will always have time for you.

The past, The future and the others.

2008-12-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

Listenin' to Jedi mind tricks - Monolith. mp3

Dear life,i know i promised i wouldnt write to you anymore sorry i lied. Just don't know who to talk to anymore, failed every attempts on every confessions. I ought to have a dairy and let the world read it after i died. In my life i got so many stories to tell with very few to share with. dear life, i feel like all the memories i have starting to fade away.. starting the day when i slowly turn my back on you. are you back to test me? ...

Thuth is i'm OKAY but you know only liars start with truth is. I know u don like me but i say fuck life, fuck the world and everything in it. Just because i don't wanna live the way you want me to u must think i'm a badman, just because i dont wana live with emotions u must think i'm a badman. Oh dear life i think u got me wrong here, i'm just tired and with that i unexpectedly let go of things when u know that i don't have the energy to even hold on to it. So now lets make things easy for me, My weeks have been really hard lately with so many things happening all at once and i still cant see any goods coming on my way.

Dear life i cant bear this pain anymore, so let go of me and tell sorry to the past,the future and to the others. Give life to the one who deserves it, i know i don't so ill face you but just go easy on me, give me a reason to stay sane. I know i made alot of mistakes but thats just mistakes i have to live with.

Sweetdreams life.

Eid Al-Fitr Al-Mubarak

2008-09-22T20:08:00.002+08:00

Currently listenin to hari raya tracks *eseh semangat*

Im not much of a raya guy, the past years sucked alot. I stayed home most of the time waiting for guests but i wanna change all that this year, i wanna be the slave to open houses! a slave to tapak kuda and kueh mor! yeap thats what yew should be doing if yew fast for a full month(right!)

I once said that i quit playing CS competitevly but then the last few weeks ive been practicing with my old teammates, for tomorow's tournament.. i dont know what brings me back i really wanted to quit but i guess yew cant just give up for the thing u love and obviously good at. i hate the fact that the tourney will be tomorow and Gadong will be jammed and packed with people buying things and whatver-they-should be doing before raya comes. What i really want to buy is sitat(The big ones!) and oh yeah badil!! crazy bang yaw! imma make it bang so crayzeeeh!

Oh TK is now the hotspot if u wanna hang out at night these days. I went there with xit and some friends last night.. i came late and i texted her "mana kamu duduk yaw , aku kabur ni mata ku" and she replied "if ko turun di bawah ada tu sebalah kiri ujung" and i was like BAWAH? hahaa.. table was right next to the river and the view is kinda nice =) reminds me of putrajaya. Not really much happened lately other than being broke for playing cs much and yeah ive been getting the same question whether i stil make tracks or not.. to tell u the truth why wud someone stop doing for something they love and the real reason is my laptop is stil on coma. Now im using my new lappy so if i wanna make tracks with this lappy i hafta start from scratch that will take me like months to gather all the materials , so yeah! im stil waiting for baby(laptop) reincarnation.

So okeh. atu sja yaw! lapas raya dtg lagi k.

Salam aidilfitri.

Selamat menyambut ramadhan

2008-09-02T13:02:00.006+08:00

sup ?

Happy fasting everyone,i feel like today seems to be a good day to start blogging again after missing for quite a while. yeap i need this to kill time cos sungkai is hours away. not that im hungry or anything.. puasa was never a hard time for me, the only thing why people find it hard is because they smoke.

Before i write any longer and before i forgot to mention this, i wanna say happy birthday to Btc and everyone invovled. i remember four years back we were only kids who like to have fun and hang out selling faces and do stupid things. When i look at what we are now, there are just too many changes in 4 years.. alot of new bradas and sistas.. we became a real family. To the very few who started this all,i will not forget the ups and downs we've been togther. thats brotherhood and thats for eternity, we'r not a group we'r a family and we'r all about love and respect. Its that simple we'r just people packed together with the same interests and thoughts.

Ok movin on..

and ...

Tips & Tricks for LanjiCam.

2008-05-27T02:50:00.008+08:00

Whatsap fellas?

Im going to post something new..Today im going to teach yew how to get someone to strip for yew! I will only be covering a few steps its quite simple if yew ask me... kira aku pro lah. Ok lets get started...

First step : Give hint(s)

As yew can see on the screenshot my hint was "Smart jua katil mu ah. Balum belimpangi tu eh"

Second step : Have a normal conversation but keeps him/her entertained.

Third step : Make him/her laugh to your jokes. yang penting ko becali lah.

Fourth step : Control macho. This is important so make sure yew give your killer pose!

For example click on the picture.

Final step : (runding!)Shooot it! go direct .. if he/she gets angry use the "block" option,it was made for a reason.

Ok hope yew guys mendapat hasil =) if yew wanna read more of my articles/guides or whatever yew wanna call it,yew can get it from the book store. PEASH!

Note : NO, i dont have a webcam and NOPE thats not me.. my twin brother tu. OK PEASH!

Dear life, I see no promises in tomorrow

2008-05-21T08:30:00.005+08:00

Bored and listening to Andra & The BackBone - Sempurna.mp3

MY LIFE. =)

.... hear me ....

Dear life, I hate yew i hate everything yew brought into me. I am going to kill myself,slit my wrists and if that fails i will jump off the building. I hate yew for giving me insomnia, I dont feel special anymore. Im not normal! My friends started calling me names like vampire and owl. I feel so sad i wish i was someone else.

WHATSUP!!? I cant fucken sleep,tucked myself on bed and got lost in thoughts for a couple of minutes and figured that i wont be sleeping anytime soon soooo here i am, BLOGGING! Ya'll prolly have a warped mind that when im bloggin that means something is playing on my mind, I have a few ways of letting things go away.. one is blogging others are like running,singing and drinking(hewhehwhewh JK). I dont really write on this blog anymore..personal life is just plain shiet but i still write on others site like DominusProject and some other sites that doesnt concern yew.

I cant believe the fact that im twentytwo now,gila kali tua wah tu :( and like i always said "I dont wanna be old and i still want my rents to tell me that im not fit for the outdoors and i still want to see myself through their eyes" I havent been writing any music lately,getting rusty and other things are always on my way. Making myself occupied when i dont want to AND yew know what bothers me lately!! My msn is full with sad people and not to mention their sad nicks :'( "think" of how it would turned me so deep down. IM CONFUSED! why do people wanna get emotionally involved with feelings that someday somehow will find their own ways into our lives. Nya my mommy.. sedih usah di cari fiee..pandai tu dtg sendiri nanti. im not saying im a big truth of the world but ive seen and known enough to tell me what life's all about.

... hear me ...

Dear life, My morning has turned chill and things are abit better after i let it out. In trouble again with my bed,My bed hits me again i cant remember what for. Maybe for falling asleep on my computer desk. My bed just misscalled me and she said she misses me and wants me now. Im going now and i wont write to yew ever again. I hate yew life. bye

ya'll are sweethearts but she's my favorite

2008-05-10T15:28:00.003+08:00

Happy mother's day to my favorite girl ~my mommy~ Thanks for all the things that yew have done for me. I know i might be your accepetedrejected son but i know deep inside your heart im your favorite jua. nda ja ma?aku anak mama yang paling kewl. All my life she always said yes to me,agreed with everything and always on my side that's why im a spoilt brat(eseh bangga). She never made my life feels like a prison .. she always let me run free and let me out with my own thoughts. She let me see the world with my own eyes and let me see what this naive kid could have caught by his own. Ive grown to my very best ma~ I know yew expected more from me but this is all i can give yew, we all mistake yew as the happy go lucky but i know your heart cried. im sorry if i keep messing on things but yew know that i always love you. happy mother's day ma.

Its been a crazy week.. ive just had my interview 2hours ago. I sat on the same lab where i sat last year. Different people and different faces i see them got lost in thougths. Probably thinkin about how to answer the questions, I tried to calm myself down seeing the no.1 card the senior gave me. I said to myself "ill be first to give them the first impression of me and ill be the first to leave AND SAMBUNG TDOR PATANG WOHOOOOO" In my mind i just wanna get home ASAP, i dont want people to see me wearing smart and looking so decent especially my FRIENDS, they'll definitely laugh at me and spread news faster than CNN. I am just not cut out for that lollll no earings,short hair,shirt tucked in? doesnt fit me at all but what can i do? you only get one chance for your first impression.

I think i shud be going now, my mom and aunties are celebrating mother's day at my granny's place. Ya know family gathering..i just cant keep myself away from food...barbeque chicken and cakes! PEACE OUT A-TOWN! and zi~ goodluck with your performance =)

Here's something to laugh at.:P

No wax. mcm baby hair! :(

Beeebyyy!!!

2008-05-02T19:26:00.004+08:00

.Mwahugsbites.

Im bored and i dont know what to blog about. i just wanna remind my dominus friends jangan lupa saturday night ani bbq makan kambing! WAWAWA. lets eat pork.. i mean lamb chop until we get nosebleed! Bah i guess that's all .. kan shopping lagi. peace out.

Beeby i wanna mwahugsbites you!
wawawawawawawawa

omg. im so lame >,<

.raphi

Sushi night out

2008-04-25T19:30:00.005+08:00

Holla den dores mama iya iya oOoOo...

I went out for dinner last night at excapade with my friends. org atu di bawa inda mau.. naleh nya. I was totally fulled with raw food and my friend naz kept ordering for me "yang ani nyaman ni" "yang atu nyaman tu" so i was like bah layan its your treat anyways. so basically i dont know what i was eating yang penting aku kanyang. thanks to mazran and naz for the treat. we had fun.

The stupidity. The food and The Couples

The crowd.

Tweeeenty-two

2008-04-17T11:27:00.005+08:00

Untuk ku sja ni. haha i forgot to take picture of the crowd. busy reply msgs.

Siblings ku. Aku ironman ah. =P

My big day

2008-04-16T06:43:00.002+08:00

Im super tired but i cant put myself to sleep. I ran 5km and play streetball for 2hours ..im tired and totally dehydrated but still i cant sleep Probably because its my birthday. Im thinking alot of things now.. sad and happy things at the same time.

Thanks to the people who texted me even if its only a few people,I expected more. Thanks jua to the people who greeted me through MSN, The one who called me and say happy birthday and Thanks berabisly to my dominus friends for the birthday surprise. Oh yeah not to mention a group of guys who oftenly lepak at SS.. thanks guys for the shisha and the song! HAHAH. spontaneous. It wasnt much..but it was the greatest birthday i ever had.

Before i blew the candles i made a wish(duh.. obviously). Yatahkan... my friends asked me what did i wish for, I said i wished that our friendship stays forever and hope that i get a better life. I watched this movie called Saving private ryan just now and that movie made me wanna live my life to the fullest. HAHAHA gila cian yo. "earn it..earn this" lol. classic eh. My point is.. im getting old,i missed alot things and im not doing what im supposed to do at this age. Im just not the guy who'd say "Been there done that" when you talk about things, im so way back.

Bah i guess thats all. Im gonna try to sleep right now. And oh yeah about the sad things i mentioned.. i expected someone to msg me.. someone who have missed 3years of my birthday and my birthday always remind me of someone's birthday,My late friend who used to be in my group WOTS (The aprils guys!!) bday kami semua april hehe except for c sam..and yeah his birthday is coming =) Bah okies. Selamat pagi kawan! Tdor dlu. Nanti ku upload gambar cake ku. Cute yo. 2 small cakes. HAHAHA.

Earth girls come here~

2008-04-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

hi..

Lagu yang ku buat di mlm buang boring! :D and before you girls jump on conclusion ... NO! i am not like that. Aku budak baik just ignore the lyrics tq. mwahs. and if yooure using 56k or ur connection is somehow slow aga my soundclick page, stream the song from there using lo-fi. cheers.

Raphi - Earth girls come here

[Intro]
Ok ima take this one slow so you girls can cope up

[Verse 1]
I purposely ruin girls life biar durang jara
And See them fall on the same shit baie inda ketara
Observe from head to toes,left nothing to adventure
see em labeled "tapped" if you plan to take them for a ride
I dont trick on chicks but got tricks up my sleeve
They know where the doors and windows at incase they wanna leave
girls are like eggs squeeze em hard it wont break
But if u Take a good knock you got em botty to shake
Im far from changing so remind your girls twice
Or else they be running my place doing excercise
I dont jog i burn calories every damn nights
I sweat the most showing them ur man aint doing it right
I keep my eyes open looking for girls snang di runding
And let them jadi perasan thought we're having a thing
Some played along some Leave notes with x's and o's
Some fell in love some slide up down the rainbows

[cHORUS]2X
Earth girls come here (Ok im comin)
Raffy's about to pull that pants down now
Show me whatchu got there (down here?)
Stop me wondering,lets get down right now

[Verse 2]
Lay down now while i explain my policy
I only take pretty,rich,cute,yummy and busty

(Ok lemme make things clear here..i dont take ugly aight)

Im the hardest man in town,the only last one standing
You thought you had enough of fun,where all the fun missin
If you wanna play hard to get - play harder
This is kz you dealing with you might wanna moan louder louderrr loudeerrr
Ever since i met that hyprocrite ever since i got played
I musta admit its hard to start belivin girls again
But look at me now,Leaving every guys' dream
Scoring chicks their bfs probably find dirt on their skirt
Dont hate me blame youself for not treating ya girls right
Im just here to fix up things to save you some fights
And for as much as they complain to me,im loving it yo
Its plain truth,the only thing i care is getting down tonight

[cHORUS]2X

[outro]
Alryte alryte.. i know that sounds cocky
But thats how kewl guys sound tryna score chicks

Apa ehh..manadaaaaa!! adaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

it'll all get better in time

2008-04-04T14:29:00.004+08:00

Thought i could live without you~ its gonna hurt when it heals too~ Hahaha lawa lagu leona lewis. boring hari ani nadakan di buat bangun tdor trs kana marah sal inda sembahyang jummat. Currently working on two songs "Earth girls come here" and "different struggles" and im trying to keep things in it position. i wanna do a part time job, i got offered as a software technician 2 days ago and im planning on taking it if dapat.. cos aku mau bali turntables XDDD mun ku gtau mama ku "ma minta 2ribu kan bali turntables" confirm kana bomb.

If kan balikan bleh jua.. Technics SL-1210 MK2 sama pioneer mixer sekali k since my birthday's coming =)) sama keyboard sekali so i can make a mini studio in my room XDDD. i received emails from a friend last night and i find it interesting so imaa share it with whoever's reading this. Ok ill start with the cute and funny animals pics. Just copy and paste the link on your adreess bar ok i dont wanna flood my blog with photos .. lagging sudah buii inda 56k friendly ah.

http://img218.imageshack.us/img218/2935/brushingab7.png
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http://img355.imageshack.us/img355/351/image001dw7.jpg
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http://img232.imageshack.us/img232/2101/image011ft0.jpg
http://img85.imageshack.us/img85/185/image012mh9.jpg
http://img141.imageshack.us/img141/3190/toiletsleepfs6.png

And check this out and make sure you click on the picture first, see it on a full image size. Some kewl pc-illusions~

Easier said

2008-03-25T19:13:00.003+08:00

Sup?

Im not really in a mood to blog,not in a mood for anything actually.So ill just get straight to the point..here's a song i made for 2days and props to Mister KA production for the beats,its lovely. Ya know there are times when i dont feel appreciated,to me fallin in love was never a great thing. People keep looking for the perfect ones when nobody's perfect but for me im just trying to make things work here and hope i'd see some efforts for a reply. I really dont wanna regret writing this im not expecting good endings i never do..fuck the future promises..we'r gambling,enuf said. Just a happy song with alot of thoughts wrote down in it. 3rd verse is empy feel free to spit on it. Enjoy!

Raphi - Easier said

[Verse1]
This all started with this girl i met i forgot where
My heart started to smile its time to get a pair
Im bad at love expressing but listen to this song
It tells you how my life means nothing when everything goes wrong
She thought she had took the hardest path when we met
girl how can you give up on me when we havent started yet
When ur around you loseen me up but tighten my blood vessels
Thanks god for sending me one of your best angels
She wears tight jeans and cute teees obviously i observe
I cant stop day dreaming you ma sweetest curse
They say only one sperm cell survives out of a millions
I say ill survive millinons obstacles even there's no options
When we kissed i feel a connection that no one cant explain
Now kiss me again cause its ur kiss that keeps me sane
You the kinda girl that makes a guy act frantic,run panic
Ignore logics and let them see magics before tragics

[Verse2]
Yeah you know its pretty hard for me to say the word i love you
But u know its easier said if i just sing for you
You are everything that i wish for and its coming true
Nothing's gonna change that,i will neva feel blue
Aside from loving you i love lookin the way u smile
Like an angel and to me ur worth walk a thousand miles
i love to see that funny faces when i make a joke
Laugh and grow old together,let them say we the happy folks
We either finish or we dont,screw what the prophecy tells
Ya know love is magic and i dont care what the agony feels
A guy like me needs a girl like you on average nights
Its when karma hits sutra two lovers get the knowledge right
Dont get me wrong i like you im just not good with speech
But im not an anti-lover and yaknow sweettalkers are just cheap
I used to fight love with heavy shield i stand guard
Now I hand you my sword Now i hand you my heart (so keep it!)

Gue punya kertas dinding.

2008-03-21T21:30:00.007+08:00

Hi

These are the wallpapers i made using photoshop and a few brushes i downloaded. Pretty kewl =D im not saying im creative but i get a little bit of it when im bored and abit thoughtful when im depressed.

PonandZi and the dead bunny.

2 elements.

Dominus Project.

Missing him

2008-03-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

Listening to Titans - Rasa ini

I dedicate this song to my late friend i know somewhere up there he found his way. I believe afterlife is real there's another life waiting for us when we're done with this life. Life is temporary so make the best of it, I used to make jokes about deaths and i thought it was funny and kewl but now that i realised it's stupid and rather annoying. It has been 7months since he passed away but feels like it just happened yesterday. Maybe because he brought alot of memories , laughters and smiles when he was still around especially on our hardest days. We used to be close we used to be brothers gosh time flew so fast that we went to different ways and got occupied with our own stuffs.

Truth is i cant believe the fact that youre gone.
Youre a remedy of sadness,you bring joys.
I cant imagine how many images of crying friends and familys the day you went away. You were something eventhough youre not here anymore on your physical form but your heart always stays with us. Maybe some people even lost their sane and it took time to recover from this loss but beyond these lines im glad that we became friends. Little friend i hope you find your way through the light and straight to that great place. AMEN.

....Al-fatihah

Cant wait to finish the song for him with my fellow wots.

I keep on coming back

2008-03-11T05:30:00.003+08:00

Selamat pagi,

I learned something in life that sometimes all you gotta do is let go (INDA EH! deep... mcm baie) This song reminds of the days when i kept on coming back the days when i hold it way too tight the days when letting go is not an alternative. It may not mean much to other people but this shit comes from my heart. Onanan was the first to listen to this track like months agoo.. never had the chance to actually finish it. just did a few editings and guess what? i just found that i should be recording audios in mono and not stereo,no wonder all the voices sound perfectly awful but hey no body's perfect right? Only some people i know lah.. ya tau segalanya!!!

I havent been out for 3days now. Thats a record..reading articles and tutorials about audio tools and recording really made me occupied. I should start to socialize back and i wanna watch that 10000bc movie,looks kewl. I noticed that im getting too emotional lately with the layout the songs and not to mention the posts. awu adang ku ni hehe anyway Check it out and please ignore the chorus LOL.

Raf - Comin' back

[Verse 1]
This life has shown me one thing and u cant debate this
The bed is not the only place that i want bliss
It was a rainday,the night when i knocked your door
I bought a diamond ring,its time to get some score
2minutes passed,theres still no sign of you
Found u lyin on the floor,gotta face the truth
Im sorry dont leave me,ill watch how i speak
No more lying,no more flirting i promise no more tricks
I just wanna go back to 2004, where it all started
so that i have the chance to dump 3 little words(i love you)
When the day comes,the greatest pain of all
Everything turns ugly,life is not always beautiful
U like sweet talks ,modern men know how to rhyme it
I dont have that,I aint that hard to admit it
Its getting hard for folks to feel a true art in this track
We've been thru alot of obstacles but i keep on coming back

[Hook]
Life was beetter when you were by my side
Now another man's taking over,this aint right
Im at your front door,all i need is just one night
To tell you how much i love you,then ill be alright

[Chorus]
You told me to go,but i keep on coming back
You said that i shud go,but i always coming back

[Verse 2]
Yeah check it out.....
Yo, shes amazing, she got multiple personalities
I bet shes going to stay just like that when she turns 30
I like the way she combs her hair,i love the way she stares
I like the way she treats me and all the feelings that we share
Today im making it big for you - rhyme with stars
For what is worth and whats not i rap 16bars
On top of the chart,quicker than the rest cos i dont smoke
I can be getting you anythime and im not playin jokes.

[Outro]
Love of my life.. i dont have the guts to express it with words
But i think this song explains it all
What i said to you many years back then, it neva changed till now.

I lost my touch

2008-03-10T02:23:00.004+08:00

OII,

Listenin to Shayne ward - Until you.mp3

Ok where should i start....recording! Yeah ive been busy these few days trying to get my touch back in recordings. I tried recording my old "Lovin you" track and still not satisfied with my final touch. Gosh producing gets harder when you left it for quite awhile especially without the right materials. Eh im not really good at searching for crack version so if anyone can search the things listed below i'd really really appreciate it.

Native waves platinum bundle
Izotope ozone
T-Racks24

I dont have much to say so here's the song.Its just a sample im still working on it.

Raf - Lovin' you
[Verse 1]
loving you is actually more than just a dream comes true
AND It seems hard to believe that i made it thru that icey icey breakthrough
I wanna tell the world that i miss you and i talk about you in my sleep
Without you i feel like the water runs deep and im drowning with no air to breathe
I know you love me, but dont just love me to keep it simple,lets get straight a's
We goota find new things everyday so we can stay new and fresh
I always dream about you tellin me stories everynight and thats simply adorable
Even if im sleepy ill give u all my night time cos its totallly affordable..baby

[Hook]
As i see across the ocean i smile at the sun
Im not gonna regret if i die now cos i know ive the met the one

[Verse 2]
That peaceful morning stay in my heart,incase i forgot it might tell me how we met
Is this love that aches my heart,it tells me how sweet love can get
If you ever question my love,i rather die havin a cancer
Came empty handed ? will i left the same cos ive neva expected for any answers
And let no tears fall between u and me,no more fake shows
If any of u is inlove just rmemeber, remember about the beauty and also the flaws
If only i can reverse hours turn back time and let me dump a few last words
I would meet your folks and tell them how much i love cos i know i was a coward
My everything,without you i have no more goals in this life
Dont wanna wake up on that "another day without you" lemme just deal with the knife
Everyday i pray for you to change..i know u had the greatest pain of all
Invest everything u have to me and ill make ur life from ugly to beautiful
i wanna say that i really love you and i mean it
I wanna look into ur eyes and say sweet words like a modern man know how to rhyme it
Damn it,i cant think straight i cant do things right i dont know what to write
But tonight lemme tell how much i love you and what im feeling inside

Im off to bed. peace.

You cost me a heart

2008-03-05T08:15:00.003+08:00

Wassap fellas??

As you can see i have a new layout which took me 4 hours to finish. Its almost 9 now i should get tucked in bed soon.I dont really update that much these days,well actually i dont update at all.I guess ive been busy updating other sites.my life doesnt really matter or does it? Ok i have nothing else to say here so ill just post a verse. Im not quite sure whether i have posted this or not but this is for those guys who HAD crazy/psycho/hyprocrite or what-ever-you-wanna-call-it girlfriends and grateful that youre not together anymore.People change,people evolve.. thats for sure but some girls cant take regret for granted.They always think they can go back to how things used to be whenever they feel remorsed.There are errors in life but some errors cant be fixed.

Raf - Ugly truth

[Verse 1 - raf]
I heard enough of your promises,save your lies
I close my eyes as i wait for the fallin skies
You used to look so fly,great body and big thighs
Now i see what you truly are "selfish"s something u cant deny
Im about a million miles from your mind,now thats false hope
Whats left behind is something left for every tear drops
Im not passionate but hurting girls on blind dates
Hate me now but know this,im a jerk you created
Tomorow's my 30th date,my 30th victim gettin hurt
Whos gna end up in my bed because of my sweet words
I thought you were gona change me instead you made me worse
Girl i Hope ya feel my pain twice through this verse
My heart lies broken,true love wont fix the hardest
Dispell me from your curse,give me back my freedom
The only reason why i never get to love girls and stay phantom (is you)
Your life is like a book,i read you from the index
Youre on ur last chapter,whatchu need is a reality check
What kinda girl who threw me away and came back the next week
This aint hatred girl,this is the ugly truth that we speak

[Chorus]
Every now and then - guys like me - get scared
Every every now and then - guys get ferocious
Every now and then - guys wanna love but dont know how-to
And this is why we know more pain than most girls do

what keeps you pushing?

2007-12-29T10:54:00.000+08:00

What keeps me playing this game? First of all because its my hobby and i had nothing better to do.

And the real reason i play this game is because one day i suck and another day im godlike. It is the missing element that makes me pushing again tomorow. Its not like any other games where you can master it to the point of it being repetitious. Cs needs skill,knowledge aim and when you play its all in your brain. Basically there is no end to this game there is no final boss, There arent enemies that comes after you simply because you walked through a doorway or walked over a trigger~ Being so unpredictable makes it fun and its a new game every time i play it. This is that one game where you need much more than just skill and practice to evolve and improve.

The fun.... ? always is.

And now its time for me to quit playing this game competitvely.
But i'll still play this game because its in my heart =D

-LANrejects . KickiN'xj
-eLeNeX.

is the grass greenier on the other side?

2007-12-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

Last night was crazy but im not gonna start talking about what happened because what happened last night stayed last night...err apakan? I love my friends to bit!!! a friend once said "kawan adalah umpama air" whatever that means but it make sense you just cant survive without it maybe you can live without it 2-3 days but not more than that. when i hate dealing with feelings friends is what i seek..friendship is my most priority like i always said when u get in my books i always gotcha back.

Ok most people post their everyday's life, thats how they blog but me nothing much really happened in a day so i cant post like that. i prefer waitin like 2-3 weeks and summrize everything that happened within that time. so here goes....

its true when you lose one you gain more.
its true when the hope is gone,life is a lonelier place.

how can i be occupied to so many stuffs and the next thing i know i got nothing to do,nothing at all. i might say this has been a busy month with so many things happened. Cs tournament just ended a week ago and we placed 4th or 5th. we could have placed much better but you know how things are in cs. i lost hope and i feel freedom at the same time,ive answered all the question marks and ive answered all the thoughts. it feels safe to say those 3 little words again after so long...but for now im just trying to get 'the group' back! i have nothing more to say so ill just let the lyric talks.

i got bored a few days ago so i ended up writing something.

As i came a feet away from her back i took a deep breath.
Then i walked to her and tapped her shoulder
I asked "Is this seat taken?" I smiled and i showed her life.
One day She stabbed me on the back slapped me in the face twice
Love hates me and i hate love.. its bad past, dont ask.
Lets call it pain instead of love and lets go get that
Just when i thought it stopped she came back for another go
Some more excruating pain but what doesnt kill you only make u strong
Betting on your last chip only getting yourself scarred
I looked deep into her heart and this TIME i looked hard
Hope to find indication of truth and i found lies
It was her game and i just played along as a loverboy in disguise
All you want is a flawless life,no other vices as we live
Thats aint life as we know it all ya have to do is keep forget and forgive
What im trying to say here is you cant find the perfect one
But u can always find someone and try to make it work

so ima try to make it work. =) cheers! bye.

I carried your heart

2007-11-29T04:22:00.000+08:00

Hi,its been a while since i last posted. theres alot of things happening in my life that i forgot about this blog. i have nothing to add now, ill write soon.

Heres a poem by e.e cummings.

I once told someone that i'd read this for someone special but i guess you didnt know you WERE the one and i always wanted to read this for you.

i carry your heart with me;
i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear no fate;
for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world;
for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows;
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud;
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart;
i carry it in my heart)

And also i want dedicate this poem to my late friend Ahmad zulfadli. I miss you alot. :'(

I named you hope.

2007-07-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

I seriously lost the purpose of this this blog. When i first registered this blogspot it was for my lyrics and the song i wrote but now it seems like im sharing more of my pathetic life than sharing my feelings in lyrics form. So i guess now im back with my writing life,I wrote a verse with my old rusty instrumental i have on my laptop and what that makes me? ragged and old. To sam one of my btc friends and one of the best emcee ive worked on throughout the years too(Wots), get well soon and i just want you to know life isnt all about speed and racing so drive carefully next time. Check whats left and get the rest right. Thats our word and hope ya'll still have that. Think about ur loved ones. Ur life is getting better so dont mess it up like i messed up mine cos life is fucked up as it is. ayte! cheers.

Heres the verse. peace

Kz -

Im trying to understand one thing girl so bear with me
One thing where a few months memories wrote down in diary
Now youre throwing it all away tryin to be the mysterious one
Thought its just gna go away but some will never gona be gone
I show no reactions,no suprises no emotions to what i feel
Some say i lost it all but i never tried to heal
Im not an equipped fix it man,i was hoping u ma remedy
Hoping for a clear vew and all i see is shimmery me
I dont understand why loved ones have to leave
When you almost fall and just found something to believe
Im a weak person who needs strength,im not a rare breed
Theres millions like me out there and only a few succeed
Seems like i got no choice but to let go this girl named hope
I lift it so high just to see one day its gonna drop
I build it you break it,yeah we'r good as new
and in the end all you want me to do is stop believing you.

Btc newly wed.

2007-07-18T14:46:00.000+08:00

I was supposed to post this a few days ago to show my big big apology to these two friends of mine for not coming to their weddding!!! I felt guilty, and even guilt-ier when all my friends were there. Btc is supposed to be a family and im supposed to be the symbol of it cause i came up with all this. Now when one of us is getting married,i was still in lala land. how kewl is that?. He came online a few days ago,he accepted my apology but i know deep inside his heart he was frustrated. A few years ago i have faith on you two and you two proved me right today. I just hope you two know that ure the reason why our other btc friends are getting gfs/bfs and cant wait to get married =)

And even some of us told me you two look like prince and princess on ur big day. i wish i was there, i wish i could turn back times and set an alarm! Too bad i dont have the picture of them getting married But i do have one picture they took before they got married from someone's album. I love you guys and I love this family. may you two live happily ever after <3. Btc Raf

HarryPotterRPG back!

2007-07-05T19:48:00.001+08:00

After a week of server down hp is back UP! Im a sixthyear student now fyi and ill keep playing this game until i get bored. Since when im not bored? For all i know im always bored.. like now! thats why im blogging. Bah im done for now, going out. Just wanna tell ya'll that HpRPG is back up again so whoever wants to help me get some points. make sure you scroll down and register from my referal link. Thanks. cheers.

.Raf

Why did they leave ?

2007-07-02T05:10:00.000+08:00

June has been a shithellhole.

I hate june! i hate july too. i hate 2007 =/

Nothing good really happened to me this year.
So like always, God let me skip the year and hope for a better one or you can just tell me you hate me :) then i'd stop praying for a better life!! I feel like everything good in my life is slowly abandoning me. First friends , friends again and then special ones what the fuck is going on hahahaha oh god you hate me, dont you :p ? I find it amusing that people got a fuken messed up life and blame god for that. "Oh you did this, you want this.. this is what u want right you play my life like u play the sims!!!!" So i thought july was gna be good but i was wrong. Ok i got back from my friend house at 4 30am and when i arrived home my parents was already awake becos my sis is "imigrating" to her new place in kb. My BANKKKKKKKKKK is leaving!!!! Thats not good! so basically i have 0 dollar to withdraw!! =(( She got a scolarship from shell for 1 year and a half so that means im gna be broke within that time. AWESOME! =D but hey lets look at the bright side, One big room , Astro and HER DESKTOP! Got so many things plang... but then i pretty much have what she has. Having 2 same things is not really a kewl thing to boast about *Evil laugh*

What NEXT!!!!!!!!!?
So whos going to war when the martians come ? I AM.
So whos going to be DEAD when the terrorists decided to bomb brunei ? I AM.
So whos going to come across with 2pac and Kurt cobain and dead to tell everyone how they died? I AM!

I dont really give a damn bah becos its glory above.
Thinking of making some new tracks but i cant seem to write anything everytime i tried. Im losing it, The purpose and the inspiration.. yeah im totally losing it blargh! Can someone make me happy for a moment here ? yeah. if youre reading this lick your monitor screen for me. YEAH LIKE that. thank you. i was happy for a moment there thanks. I noticed that im only at home when im sleeping and when i want to take a bath. Yeah true i hardly see my parents this week. I am the opposite of u homesick motherfuckers! HAHAHAHAA. I rarely even go online anymore. Whaats there to go online anyways? NOTHING! yeah i thought so. Yesterday I woke up at 5, Went to the kitchen looking for my mother with that just woke up face and said "MA.. wheres ur phone?"
To call my friends to confirm about watching movie. So I showered and everything.. watched TRANSFORMER --> had dinner at the mall --> Then! went to my friend's place till now. Did so many things in between those though but im not gna go details with that. Um if someone have doubts about how kewl is the movie =/ My rate : 12/10 , The extra two is for that hot girl in the movie!!! Omygosh shes so hot =) Shes defintly my future type of gf. HAHAHA what a perasan bitch. someone tell me whats the name so i can google her naked pic !! PLEASE!!!

Bah im done! Anyways aside from 2007 is being such a bad year for me it is also a year that i get to know someone great so lets just slow it down here god. Im off to watch Red rose now which ive been trying to finish for 2 days and failed(Cos i always fell asleep watching) Peace. .V.

Knowledge for some people.

2007-06-26T18:46:00.001+08:00

Ok i just bought this mouse. Its a microsoft Intellimouse Explorer 3.0 Steel series edition. It cost about 65USD thats around $110 our money and some people said that its not worth it to buy a mice thats expensive BUT ill explain why its worth it! ill come to that later. ill first try to list all the specifications of this mouse.

. Shape : Designed for right handed.
. Buttons : 5 buttons
. Wheel : Vertical (The sound is kinda loud imo)
. Sensor : Optical (Yes its not laser. see the red light coming out from that mouse!)
. Resolution : 400 DPI

Thats all i know =S looking at the original mouse and this one the first thing ull notice is the difference in surface and color other than that nothing have been changed. In my humble opinion this mice is one of the few truly great gaming mice ever produced and it was very a smart choice re-leasing such a very legendary mouse and not changing more than the color! cos people like its performance the way it is =). Ok what the differences between this mouse and those pro-claimed "performance" mouse that couse upwards to $80 and not to mention the technologies of laser and skyrocketing DPIs(some until 3000dpi) are REALLY the DPI, despite how low the dpi is(400) but its almost imposible to throw this mouse away even if u have low sensitivity to flicks and 360! Cos ive tried it =D the performance of 9000 FPS and yes of course the surface anti-sweat and grip. HUAHAUHAUAH MAN I JUST LOVE MY MOUSE AND MY HEADSET TOO! BUT SERIOUSLY I DONT WANNA START TO REVIEW ABOUT MY HEADSET. WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET.

Anyways i was half way blogging then i went to play basketball. I just got there and i have to leave already, u know why ? cos it fuken rain right after i got there. get to bouce and chup a few balls and PSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH it fuken rain. So i went home and my cousin called telling me good news XD my things have arrived and now im getting ready to try it on. Bah so i gtg now. goota scrim and see how it goes =) Bye. <33333

P/S : i miss sweets =D

Lastnight's scrim

2007-06-21T05:34:00.000+08:00

When i woke up last night(Yes noticed the last night,im a fuken vampire fyi) Mom told me bad news and turned my "Just-woke-up-mood" to "I-need-to-play-games- cos-im-sad-MOOD!" so i asked my mom for the car key and went to the cyber to scrim. brought a few friends to war and ended up dead dead dead but i still love this never-ending games. I text with someone all the way along,yap dont text and go to war cos thats like going for a suicide mission. so i played at my worst and i blame on the fucken mouse,pc and rivals. I needed to text with that someone cos i dont wanna waste $4.50 on "cheer up" at coffeezone *sighs*. HAHAHAAH. Cant wait to try on my new gears =) and here's a screenshot of a last night scrim. Raffy + Ak = GOOD GAME! <3

You can love an angel but you goota take the chance.

2007-06-18T17:02:00.000+08:00

I know who i am and im certainly sure who you are and the last time i said something nice to you, you were crying like the whole world gna go down on you,Im glad to see you smile now cos from where i stood i could see that shiny face where i first met an angel. goodluck! =D Vz zvffvat fbzrbar fb zhpu v whfg ubcr fur xabjf gung! o well, im addicted with another game now so basically im playing 2 games at a time. Cs, HP rpg and coffee! Oh yeah thats life. heee. Im getting myself new gears! Microsoft Intel 3.0 mice and siberia steelseries headset,ill put up a pic later just to let u see how wicked it is.

Last night i was having a terible headace that i cud stand my arm been pulled out of its socket but not this! I took 2 panadols and i went to sleep straight away,i mean its crazy the other day i didnt sleep at all,the next day i slept the whole day and when i woke up i had a torturing day. hows that for a life ? =) = Games and coffee!

Oh yeah im chatting with someone right now and here ill tell u the reasons why someone like me cant have a hot maid!

1) You hafta be nice everytime!!
2) You cant have her to do this and that!!
3) Ermmm... ok maybe u know this one :p HAHAHA! <3

Wishlist.

MI 3.0 (SS edition) , Siberia Headset and this fuken beat from victory beatz. (DUDE i didnt contact u like a week and u just fucken sold that beat straight away. bullshit,i loved that beat and u know no one cudve peep something ill-er with that beat except for me haha)

Bored

2007-06-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

Wanna play some rpg ? Try this > Harry potter < my nick is raffyonanan =) level 10 now *winks at someone*

If ure bored, this game sure'll make u occupied. cheers.

Another manic day

2007-06-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

Listening to Atmosphere - Abusing the rib.

Slug u know how much i love you <3 Youre my first chapter of all this rap music. Youre that one person with so many stories to tell,with so many thoughts to write down. Youre just awesome and whether ya'll like it or not Slug is reluctant king of emo hop! the emerging alt-rap scene oh yeah ya'll poklanders didnt see that coming, did u ? It took ya'll like 2 or 3 years before u can peep the new jay-z album but if ya tryna get a grip with slug's rap you aint neva gna get it off. <3

Its been a crazy week, yesterday i had to wake up early to fetch all my siblings from school then i had a driving class and after that i went to the saloon to cut my hair cos my tutor said my hair is still long for the driving test which is today!my hair is short now and you can see how chubby i am >,< fckkk. I didnt know taking a driving license is such a pain in the ass!!! Ok btw the test was apiece of cake =P *Belted up and took off* *Ok sir this is how u drift,i learnt this from Fast and furious drft :Tokyo*. Ok forget all that now its all good, all i hafta wait now is my interview result. Gosh when is my life gona get a little bit settld down. Im gna get back to sleep now since i only slept for like 5hours and My requirement of sleep is by wickedness which is 11hours ;) some of my friendshave been asking what i wrote on my last post. actually its an encrypted text and it can be decrypted by a simple cipher text if u know what it is =D Or let me teach u how. Switch it to the 13th alphabet and vice versa. Cheers.

Before i go. im gna put up my FIRST song lyric. This song was for my best buddie. i didnt even know this song existed till i met her a few days ago. I forgot the title of this song but i think its avt tva(aries versus taurus) Hahah?

Kz0We - Avt Tva

[intro] speakin
yo,i got something on my mind,
my conscience says i gotta let it off befo i let it go
i dont even care whether i contemplate this befo i spit it out,cos im'a spit right about now

[First Verse - Kz]
Once upon a time,i met a girl met her nowhere
One glance of her nick,i dont even know why i was there
Sometimes She's Amazin,She got multiple Personalities
Too bad,I wish i could change her like those normal ladies
I know u howl in ur dream,U remain Ur stories untold
When u wake up,U realize that now ure gettin Old(well thats good)
Some Say Different ppl,They got different(what)Prespective
and i think ur the kind of a girl who likes to be so creative
My intellect indicates ur age on how long u have been lost in space
Ur sad,u keep puttin that expression looks upon ur face
Illuminate u?waste of time Cos u think uve seen the real brunei
This is like the Crucifixion,When they get the wrong guy
Guyz Got Gimmicks,Surroundin U there's a false friendship
Hanky panky on u,dont fall to fake relationship
Picture me in a gunfight,out of bullets with holster
the time u get back here,U just got the chance to see my poster

[Chorus 2x]
The things i type and sing,may not Come quite Through
(but girl what im tellin u is not a joke),but its all true

[2nd verse][KZ]
Not even an equipped Fix-it man could change her
A motherfuker left her with a scar without a remedy and she had nothing to refer
I do things that can make u smile not to mention to lessen ur pain in life, so it all make sense
Yeah.. im like the next chapter, about to take away ur mind daze
Surrounded by his dramas,like you wanna take a lifetime just to appraise
The guy that you so so called buddy because u were hurt
Nevertheless , i will still be listening to ur all ur sadness like a love expert
Make a new history and u shud start NOW,THE present
thats the important time in history,u dont learn that in skewl lesson
Ill count the months,Count the days With my 2004 and 5 Calendar
ill be waitin Fo u,and u beta start stickin to one gender :)

Goodluck girl...

argh.

2007-06-04T05:30:00.000+08:00

Uv gb ab bar. =) vir orra guvaxvat nybg yngryl, guvxva nobhg yvsr naq guvatf vir orra pbzzvgrq vagb. Tnzrf unir bpphcvrq zr gbb zhpu hagvy v artyrpgrq fb zhpu guvatf rfcrpvnyyl gung vzcbegnag fbzrbar!! Ohg ab vg vf abg yvxr jung vg frrzf ( Lbh ner nyjnlf va zl zvaq nuunun =) ) V qbag xabj jul v pner yrff nobhg gur "sha" va yvsr naq qbag rira obgure gb fgehttyr sbe vg, znlor vgf gur onq rkcrevraprq v unq naq gurfr guvatf unir orra ybpxrq va zl zvaq gung vg xrrcf fnlvat "Vgf abg sberire" lrf jungrire. V whfg jnag fbzrguvat gb qb gb xvyy gvzrf va guvf arire raqvat jrrxraqf. Vir orra fgerffrq,Vir ybfg zl fnar bapr naq vir ybfg gur zrnavat gb yvir bapr gbb naq lrf v nyjnlf svaq n ernfba gb fgbc.

Yranonanan fnvq gung tnzrf unir pbeehcgrq zr :C naq gung vf fb fb abg gehr. Guvf tvey vf shaal naq fur yrsg zr n tbbq vzcerffvba bs ure frys gung jurarire v guvax nobhg ure v nhgbzngvpnyyl fzvyr. unnunun. Fb naljnlf v ernyyl qbag xabj jurer vz tbvat jvgu guvf yvsr,jung v xabj vf gung vz jnyxvat fgenvtug sbyybjvat ba zl bja cngu naq vs fbzrbar jnaan pngpu hc jvgu zr url h tbbgn jnyx ba gur fnzr cnpr. netuuuuu lrf lrf abar bs zl qrynlrq genpxf ner va cebterff v zrna yvxr jung gur shpx! v jnf qrgrezvarq gb svavfu vg nyy ohg v qbag xabj v whfg qbag unir gur gvzr gb qb gung. V frevbhfyl zvff jevgvat naq rkcerffvat zl srryvatf jvgu jbeqf. Vs tbq pna tvir zr nal yvsrf onpx,v fuhq pubbfr gung 3 lrnef onpx yvsr jura yvsr jnf fgvyy oyvff reezzz ab.. gung yvsr jurer fbzrbar hfrq gb pner nobhg zr.. rezz ab gung yvsr jura v jnf unccvre.. frr fb zhpu yvsrf gb pubbfr znlor vyy whfg fgvpx gb guvf bar naq frr jurer vgf tbvat =) V whfg jnag rirelbar gb xabj gung tnzr vf whfg zl ubool naq vir ARIRE ertergrq cynlva nal tnzrf rfcrpvnyyl PF orpnhfr vgf gur orfg ubool v rire unq.. rezz unir =) Vgf abg n gvzr gb pnyy n dhvg LRG ohg qbag jbeel vyy dhvg jvgu gur ovttrfg npuvrirzrag! naq lrf ol gung tnzrf qbrfag punatr zl yvsr! trg gung fgenvtug, arire va nal jnlf vg punatrf zl yvsr naq ab vg qbrfag znxr zr sbetrg nalbar rfcrpvnyyl fcrpvny barf =) ree jnvg. fcrpvny bar. v qbag unir gung nybg =P unun naq gb nalbar jub xabjf vz ernyyl fbeel vs v rire sehfgengrq ln'yy =) vz gelvat gb punatr gb or n orggre crefba.

Ps. This page is going to be on hiatus for a little while but dont worry ill write when i want to and dont ask me about what i wrote.. Oh yeah one more thing before i go =) Yranonanan v zvff lbh fb zhpu =D

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Malay guy's pain.

2007-05-19T08:25:00.000+08:00

I didnt go to my convocation dinner last night and i know ive missed so much fun than lying down on my friggin bed. When i woke up yesterday i couldnt barely even get up from my bed, fuck right? Then i took medicine and went back to sleep. So basically i over slept too much and my bed time was pretty messed up.Hopefully i get better and better by tomorow cos im going to kb just to have this friendly match with the CS girls clan there =p. 5 guys having a war with 5 girls,imagine that? Its gna be hell of a war. So god hear my prayer "i wanna feel energetic enough so that i can go to war and give me the strength to win this battle." amin. seriously this match isnt for fun or i wanna flirt with them or anything its just that my friend is pretty much of a showoff, and yeah we'r in the freakin same team!

Lets get to the topic. I think that me myself is not a good brother,not a good role model. I tried to tell my brothers not to become like me but it dint work. When i was their age i used to say hiphop book was my genesis and now theyre sayin the same. They pierced their ears just because i pierced mine! and when my parents ask them they just go "Bro pierced his ears too, so its not a big deal" like wtf?!?!!?? i dont care if they wanna dress up like me but what worse is they use my things without me knowing when i never even aggred to share my things with them!!! and my parents always blame me on whats happening to them.Oh yeah guess what,one of my bro came online just now and his nick was "ponting sk0lah" whatttt.. hes skipping skewl like i used to do when i was in primary skewl! auahauhauh and now people start saying that they resemble his brother very much.I cant imagine how so much things they got influenced by me,i should start going to the mosque and maybe if i got lucky they would come with me! gosh. so anyways i was appearing offfline when he came online then i clicked him and this is how the conversation goes. (Sorry i closed the conversation window)

Me : Wow.. steady tu ah..ponting skewlah..kajap ah aku msg mama.
Brother : Haha~ ada jua mama on9 :p agatah click iya.
Me : Peduli apa ko anak thailand! (I get prety pissed off if someone act silly when i threaten them)
Brother : Hahah bah agatah add mama :p *Censored@hotmail.com* (Which i already have but i blocked HER cos i dont want her to check on me)
Me : Malas tah ku ingau.
Brother : Hahah bah kan belajar ku ni.. mengacau e ;p
Me : K whatever...

*offline..*

*Notice the 'haha' infront of his lines?he was scared and i think he blocked me. i am so so going to tell my mom* chheeeers ;) !!!

Fucked up day.

2007-05-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

Well nothing much to blog really. ItS just that im not feeling very well and convecation was pretty fucked up. When i came for the rehearsal all they talked about was "Perfection" and not making any mistakes. "I want you all to come early so that i can take your attendance cos we dont want to call ou the names of someone who doesnt come" Oh yeah and guess what =p i came but they forgot to call out my name. ahahhaha. how fucked up was that? But it was fun gettin to meet all my old friends,we had lunch in McD and its all good. So today was fucked up, how about a fucked up pic to make my day ? ;) hahaha

AHAHAH. me das and malek. all black. hey say what u want.. "we graduated so enuf said" :p

Meaning of life~

2007-05-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

Listening to Braille - Keep on.mp3!

Phew~ I think i did well on my interview just now. The interviewers were really being friendly and by that they made my nervousness went away and a really big thanks to all the seniors for the 'tips' even its not that helpful. Like all they do is make all the interviewees more nervous and tension! but theyre friendly and most of them are goodlooking esp the girls.. eerrr raf u fuken suckup! haahah no they arent :p blargh! I slept around 11 last night(thats very2 early for a vampire like me) just to get enough sleep for today but guess what!! i woke up at 3am and all i think was my game game game game then ok i switchd on my laptop and play games! GEEEEZ! Im having my convocation rehearsal this afternoon in igs for this 17th. after im done with all this, no one is gna stop me with my games!!(well prolly someone ;p) me and my game is like one and one does great things when united with games. true meaning of life. haaaah! Peace v('-'v)

True friendship is rare indeed.

2007-05-03T16:54:00.000+08:00

Listening to Kci and jojo - All my life.

When someone play this song ill go like "fuck why this song?".Ok last 3 nights i played this song in my car and i was singing it with all my heart! and my chinese friend asked me "What song is this?" but he kept singing the chorus like he knows it! i was like "Wtf dude,its all my life by kci and jojo. u must be the only person who doesnt know this song" and the next day,he got this song playing over and over again on his ipod lol. Ok back to the point. This song mean the world to me but i hate it too. It has alot of sweet and bad memories. It reminds me of someone who used to be special,some friends and some people. Speaking of friends, friendship does make me wonder about many things. Im kinda confused on what happened in my life, dont u ? ahhahaa.

Im the kinda guy who seeks friends and enemies and searches them here and there. I also find good friends in former enemies and some former friends become enemies. You all can be friends with me today but tomorrow will tell..It wont be that easy since im the person whom hard to make friends and not wish to be friends cos why give when people done appreciate? Sometimes i think enemies are better than friends cos enemies could never bring that hurt which betraying friends bring.Enemies never cause drama,tragedy,jealousness but friends always do. nd enemies can sometimes become friends..and that makes us happier even for a lil bit. Today ive realised that i only have a few friends that would listen to me whenever i need them while the rest just busy with their life laughing,partying and ring me when it comes to crying. Its ok, i dont mind.. i deserved it and ive deserted those hatred feelings. There are some people i want to stay friends with and dont want to lost contact with..Cos being friends is the only way i mean something to you that you only remember once a year. There are some people in life for the sake of which i will stay alive. I have free myself from hatred and with this way i hope i'll find a good thing about love and friendship And i have free myself from someone just because i want to see whether promises mean something to you or not. Love is not my priority but friendship is much more, Love is not something to play but friendship is something enough to love. A promise is a promise,you said that my friend.You said that wah bitch! and look whos the one only having a great life now. hahahah enough for the hatred. Well to tell you the truth this shit did happen within my college life and im glad i last thoughout the years. So i guess the words "Friends forever" mean nothing but lemme tell you one thing, Friendship does last longer than love and thats for sure. HEEEE.

I can't win

2007-04-29T11:41:00.000+08:00

Listening to Pack Fm - I can't win.

Hee ive been blogging 2days in a row. thats rare =p im just bored ok, i woke up early today just to attend this stupid driving class lessons. Got back at 10 and my mom wanted to bring me to empire for lunch but i said narh ive already got plan with my frens. So yeah does anyone ever heard about Pack Fm ? from illmatic ? wait.. no one listens to underground hiphop =/ ive been searching for this song for months! and guess what,i found it last night(jumps around) =DD My fren helped me search for it while we were surfing at cz last night. The thing is most people dont know how to appreciate them, people listen to dope beats,nice voices and things like that but they never actually listen to the lyrics and flows. most of them are lyricist and they talk about deep issues and concepts unlike most mainstreams they sing stuffs about sex party girls and money.People these days they go like Oh wait~ i like this song cos the video clip got hot models with nice curve asses and big boobies~ ... and hardly wearin any clothes. Jk~ ;p oh yeah they like that. hiphop is getting crappier every now and then. lols. bah eh. and i just noticed that im out of crdt when i tried to reply her tadi =( oi wake up bah u bum. i woke up early cos of the driving class lah!! u ah.. forgot everything i told you =P bye! oH yeah here is some old stuff from me. I made this song ni 2004 for someone i really love in this world and nothing's gna change that. <3

Kz - Im sorry

[Intro]
this is the song where we can sing along.
this is the song thats gna put my name up and it goes to my mother

[Chorus]
Ma im sorry that i break ur heart,
turned my back on you and made u stay up on those sleepless nights
Ma im sorry i made you cry
i made you put me down cos im jsut doing what i think is right

[Verse 1 raf]
Stage name they call me Kz,real name they call me rafiee
But fo my mother she used ta called me by the name of "pee"
With all that sins i have made the sweet memories gettin faded
Like im gettin off ur head i feel like im already dead
i Guess they were right ma,things will neva be the same.
U can curse me,im so hard headed and i have no shame
I lied but only if i have a reason
Thanks fo not makin my life feels like a prison
What if you just let me out,would i be frozen?
Hey Ma you let me run free and u let me out with my thought
Just to make me feel and see what this naive kid coulda hve caught?
Whatever they say i know im ur stupidest son on earth
Sound in ur heart "stupid son i shudnt hve made love and gve birth"
Thank fo everything that uve done fo the rest of my life
My heart cried but they mistake me as a happy-go-lucky
Im sorry ma i made u cry but this is the best i can do
I keep messin on things but u know dat "i always love u"

[Chorus]
Ma im sorry that i break ur heart,
turned my back on you and made u stay up on sleepless night
Ma im sorry i made you cry
i made you put me down cos im jsut doing what i think is right

[Verse 2 raf]
Ma pls say that u never meant the things u said to me
Cos if its dont,its the worst words ever said to me
I dont mind being the last on ur list anymore
To let u know im just like a shell waiting for someone to pick me up down the sea shore
I wish i can take a photo with u,for the day after tomorrow
So that ill smile,lewkin back times..Cos i know im knockin' the hell's door
I just need one chance to make it up to you
But when u think its really hard to give,devil's with me god's with u
And again im sorry,Maybe im just too good to be true
Like a bad guy charatcher,its all about the catch and hes aimin at u
I roll the dice shuffle the cards and put my life on the line
Maybe this is the only way,i can put myself fresh in ur mind
Im already dead but my body wont decay so cut me with a rusty cleaver
Its better than being ignored by ur own mother
Then cut me into pieces and put each up in a freezer
Maybe someday,someone will need my heart or maybe my liver

[Chorus]
Ma im sorry that i break ur heart,
turned my back on you and made u stay up on sleepless night
Ma im sorry i made you cry
i made you put me down cos im jsut doing what i think is right

The truth is . .

2007-04-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

Ive put some authorisation code to my blog to give more personal feelings into my blog~i dont want my blog to be exposed,i want it to be more like a diary where i can write almost everything and only a few people can read about it. blargh. the password is easy to find out tho if u know how to, eh why wud i wanna tell someone whos already reading this.(they prolly already knew) its been a while since i last blogged,and my blog is getting old,ragged and err unshaven.umm what shd i blog about this time.. ok hey people its me raf~~~~ (Duh obviously) Ok nvm. Ive determined myself to finish all my tracks that ive starteD but first i need to get a new headphone. I miss my akg headphone bah :(:( if anyone can fix it kindly contact me at my email ok? yesterday was fun went out with my mom and siblings for lunch and then we went shopping.i bought a new polo shirt,earings,a stud and 3 dvds(Night at the museum,Shooter and eragon). Eragon is the bomb... its a must watch movie for sure. bah i go shower now =) going out later.. peace v('-'v)

This is yesterday's post. i thought ive posted it =/

Putting it together

2007-04-03T19:45:00.000+08:00

Eh let me put my mind together first then ill blog xD. arghh ive been having terrible headache since i woke up, i know i fuken overslept but what else could i do at home ? nothing beside watching tv, facing my laptop and sleep. i was supposed to blog last night cause i promised someone that id blog once we hang up ahhaah, we dint actually hang up and say bye things like that.. i guess her mom came upstairs and she was just like "i gtg,..........(silence)..........." lol and the thing is i was waiting for her to reply my msg until i felt asleep xD so jea im trying to make excuses here why i didnt blog lastnight hahaha. she sound cute on the phone(i swear lol) and yeah she talked alot like 60% came from her and 40% me.

I just got back from labuan 2 days ago and uh im not gna talk about how hot it is there. i was a malay when i got there and now im back as a black man, well thats a good thing. i think ya'll already have a warped mind on how things are like in any malaysian countries. - Drugs and prostitutes- and most of the population who indulge this come from tourists. uh yeah, bruneians i suppose xD ahahaha. so yeah i went there with my cuzens and there was this room and the sign says "Sauna room" i tot it was real at first but after what i overheard from that room, girls chatting, laughing and people playing pool stuff like that. i started to wonder, so i asked my cuzen "Eh dude banar kah tu sauna room ah?!" and he was like "haha awu dude sauna room tu with bitches inside..klu ko mau $250 for one night and $150 for one shot" I WAS LIKE WTF HAHAHA. why would i wanna waste my money on a prostitute thats like ewwwwwwww. we know how to have fun but jea thats out of my league. this is what they prolly say to tourists "Let them indulge their satisfaction, let them go home and work and come back to us for another go.. thats easy money yo" hahaha well thats what i think.

Uh have u guys read about the lightning kills two soldiers ? and i just found out a minute ago that my friend was on the platoon and thank god hes just got minor injuries. if u havent read it , heres a link, u know what this blog is fuken retarded and dont mind about the underline, fuck this. i shud be going now.. and yeah i was gonna upload my song "one steap ahead" but narh i dont think so, maybe next time cos now im outta time. ill be sleeping at my cuzen's place for a few days so that means no internet for me.

Ps: oi siaw ling u came online so damn late

Tell a lot of lies and youre gonna hear confessions

2007-03-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

Bored and im listening to Kelis ft Ceelo - Lil star now.

Sup life? Ive been tired for the past few days. not enough sleep and so much things to be done. glad that its done now. but like someone always said "at least you dont have skewl tomorow" so i guess its all good xD. ya'll shud know that when i blog something is playing on my mind, i have a few ways of letting it go away and this one of em. uh i cant believe that im coming 21 soon. i dont wanna be old and i still want my rents to tell me that im not fit for the outdoors and i still want to see myself through their eyes..cos what ive seen is what i shudntve. im not saying that im a big truth of the world but hey i know enough to tell me what life's all about.

So anyways, im not gona post any lyrics in this post but im gona post something similar to expressing thoughts,feelings or whatsoever. People have their own ways of expressing things, mine is in rhyme form. But theres this guy who expresses his feelings in cartoon forms. called Ponandzi. Fuken nice and cute, you should check it out. All these things are relatd to only one thing, and thats art. and this is how he make use of it. peace.

Bosannnn

2007-03-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

Its saturday night and kz is right here blogging. im supposed to go hang out with some friends or go to this bbq/pool party my friends invited me to. My friends started to call me buang batu, sombong or some shit like that because i dont hang out much with them anymore. its not like that. i dont know myself. ive been keepin myself busy with stuffs lately.. or maybe im just too occupied to something. I just dont give a damn, im starting to like my room nowadys. done that been there.

I was bord just now so i wrote something about "The ugly truth". a fren called me last week asking me to find some fine beats, he wanted to make some tracks. this is the one beat i ended up with. im gona give them the beats and see how its going with their verses. Oh yeah im not bored right now cos siaw ling is online ahaha. well at least i have someone fun to chat with. Enuf said. I wanna eat my dinner now cos i havent eaten anything since this morning. Peace v(",v) So here it is.

-The ugly truth-

[Raf talking,Intro]
This girl,
She aint the materialistic type who acts diff when she come across money
What she does is always her choice.
She doesnt say hi, she doesnt say bye.
The only thing she says after she hurts someone is
"How u doing?" - "Im fine girl, just fine"

[Verse1 Raf]
I heard enough of your promises,save your lies
I close my eyes as i wait for the fallin skies
You used to look so fly,great body and big thighs
Now i see what you truly are "selfish"s something u cant deny
Im about a million miles from your mind,now thats false hope
Whats left behind is something left for every tear drops
Im not passionate but im hurting girls on every blind dates
Hate me now but know this,im a jerk you created
Tomorow's my 30th date,my 30th victim gettin hurt
Whos gna end up in my bed because of my sweet words
Dispell me from your curse,give me back my freedom
The only reason why i never get to love girls and stay phantom
Your life is like a book,i read you from the index
Youre on ur last chapter,whatchu need is a reality check
What kinda girl who threw me away and came back the next week
This aint hatred girl,this is the ugly truth that we speak

Every now and then - guys like me - get scared
Every every now and then - guys get ferocious
Every now and then - guys wanna love but dont know how-to
And this is why we know more pain than most girls do

[Verse 2 FlyHigh]

[Verse 3 Cablbo]

[Chorus]

2007

2007-03-10T07:17:00.000+08:00

As you can see, i havent been posting anything since last year. im bored now dear blog, its 8:15 am and i still cant sleep. Now im just gna talk about my life and some changes i made,or not? for this year.

Well helo 2007.
Let me fuken welcome you to the year of no bombings,no terrorism,no crazy-threats or what-so-eBbBEeErR. lets bring peace v(".) like the hippies peace, lets all wear peace necklace or like the hiphopers with the peace bling bling..ive been watching this series called 24, and knowing about how dangerous a terrorist threat cud be sure scare the shit out of me.so jea, peace everyone ? =(

I have an announcemnt, i am still presently unattached to anyone so send me ur cv with a cover letter attached with ur profile and medical certificate check up to be sure that you are clear from std's. buahwheuahewu-,- dont just rape my blog and not show me some love ok. say hi sayhiiii.. ^^ i just recovered from a bad relationship with my ex(she was a total drama queen).it wasnt really official, but i had to dump her.. well that was long ago, and i dont feel anything, i was just frustrated because she has a brain size of a durian.err wait,t hats big.. i meana peanut. so id say 2006 was pretty shit, the only great thing that ever happened in 2006 was probably.. nothing? except that i got enrolled in igs and met some crazy people. but i had to leave for some reasons, missing in action from the circles was hard i just cant stop thinking about those crazy moments we had esp back in KL. nothing changed in 2007,its all the same but i keep myself busy this year, playing games, going out and playing basketball. talking about basketball, i can still remember the moment i dislocated my shoulder last month like it was yesterday. i had my bro to fix it, cos hospital wont make a dislocated shoulder any better. it happened like 5times already, so why fuken bother. besides i cant imagine giving up playing bball just because of it. So i rested for 3 days and start playing again. i expect for something good to happen in my life this year,2006 was dull yo and why cant just one girl sharpen it for me this year. im just kidding, i was wrong to believe that i cud be happy this year. i know ive "neglected" some nice girls last year, hate me all u want girls but i have my reasons do to so. you know the thing that makes ur fantasy great is the possibility that it might come true and if you lose that,it SUCKS! I never really dated anyone my whole life expect for this one girl, she was special in her own ways. i learnt something from that realtionship and thats life. so if yo come up to me and say i love you and want to be with me forever, save that for your husband. i dont go for naive girls. #%W#@%#@T@#^%3 oh yeah theres this one girl who really caught my attention but it just seem so wrong, so i put an end to my dilemma and again aug@#$2ag@#$!@%^sga. ive been writing alot this year, just dont have the time to get the recording done. im working on this song called one steap ahead and time to fall but im still looking for someone to do the chorus cos everytime i do the chorus it just ain right. ill upload both samples of the song on my soundclick soon, just the verses. no chorus. anyways so much for a 3monthpost. ima stop now cos i needa sleep. seee you in dreams. <33

-One step ahead-

[INTRO]
this world wanna serve me,so i serve em right.
each books should be a new beginning,for a writer.
this is for all the dead rappers. always with u

[VERSE1]
Ay yo,
they force me to fight,without knowin im hungrier than mike tyson
Ears for dinner,blood phobia for ur first lesson
Pass me the mic,my rap mathematic is set to completely destory
Everyhthing peace,like what achilles did to troy
yO think i havent seen it all,bad guys rise and kingdoms fall
My verses are merged with spirits,the strongest wall
Ima stand tall, cos Rapping is the only life i know
Now that im grown,stronger? shudve killed me along time ago
My spit is my fist,can do much more when i will
Movement in this music?im one of the few who keeps it real
Visualize everythin in this world would cme easy
Send demo tapes to a record label,they say "son ur the illest emcee"
whats next?another rap war like tupac and biggie?
Hiphop is dangerous,u goota be a one man army
See thru me kids,ull know my whole persona was fake
Im trying to embrace everything,i dont care how many life it takes

[CHORUS]
---

[VERSE2]
So whos gna be responsible if i do damage
I rip ur chest clean everything u got,heres some of my rap knowledge
Rap aint nothing,its thoughts expressed in rhyme form
Ill touch more lives if u dont stop me,ima weather the storm
But how ya supposed to stop me if your semi-retarded
If ur hiphop is the one they say,thats another life wasted
My mind's deep, my life's cheap and my soul sleeps
In this life or another,the love they say is the only one i keep
its deep,the world's going upside down as i speak
Im no superman,but still im tryin to justice the weak
my life gotta lotta stories, lotta journeys , loota enemies
Lotta glories but only very few mean anythng to me
This is my cursive thoughts,i always have the same rhyme scheme
If your rapping for peace,i'd be rapping for dreams
People dont label me genius yet,but im half way there
Heres an advice : kneel down and just pretend to get scared

[Me talking]
Ay yo birth and death are the two noblest expressions of bravery
Im here cos i love hiphop, and the spirit it just wont stop. RIP

Welcome to the world of this thing we call fake
fake smiles,fake friendships, fake love and false handshakes
Im bringing it back,hiphop back to square one
Back when it was original,sad to know now its all gone
they go online,check out some battle hiphop site
spit some rhymes,think they know what hiphop's like
talking about your lame ass group when u dont even own a mic
Called yourself tupac jr. just because u look alike
Rappers get shot out there,they die young
N chu think its kewl,not knowing u can be dead before u slip ur tongue
Life is short,thats why u goota fight
If in this life ur a peasant,the next life u gota be a knight
What im tryna say,one cant stay at one spot
yOU gotta take one step ahead,and ur ready to die if uve fought
I speak to you directly,god in this life i think im done
Now take me to that great place,where we unite as one

[Chorus]

------------------------------------

-Time to fall-

Intro(deadsy)
Motherfuckers its time fall 5x
(kz)
Its ttime to fall motherfukers

[Verse1] (Kz)
At first sight,im just a stranger to ur eyes.
Remember me now,When i go huge kz might rap advice
You need to recognize the size of my rap bars
Or even better just shut your mouth and listen to rock star
Lay your head back,lemme extract the thoughts from ur head
I chop and i spread im makin sure u remember things ive said
Bite your tongue,the only way u know how to sing
You scream louder than the crowd and claimed to be a rap king
Your fame aint as tall as half of this,my flow tease
My rap theories,16bars im going on killing sprees
I was never embellished by any talents, so abuse it
Fight for the rights while i wipe whos falling,excuse me
Im going out of the chart,going down and now am gone
Mainstreams brainwash people and make em listen to lil john
You can hear me growl, you can feel the verses foul
But as hard as u try,Rapping is how u gna fall

[Chorus] (Deadsy)
Now eveybody speakin about how you gona fail and fall
U just woke up from a dream and here's nightmare for you all
now everybody lay down and listen to brunei rapcore shit

[Verse2] (Kz)
ayo, My heart died but mind fully focus to be the best
Go through all my struggles,even 2pac soul might get impressed
Now hit ur chest twice,ask whatcha want in life
If its rappin',stop dreaming and do something with the knife
I aint scared,even ur that Superstitious kid in scary movie
yo can jump right out the screen and can still barely move me
I master my soul,thats why you never heard of my style
Better believe and read my strongest structure cos its worth while
Take a close look on my verse,u might need to balance
Dont fall now boy cos i might turn it to a moment of silence
So you can take my advice,lose enough but dont lose your pride
You may let your life rest,but ur soul already died

[Chorus] (Deadsy)
Now eveybody speakin about how you gona fail and fall
U just woke up from a dream and here's nightmare for you all
now everybody lay down and listen to brunei rapcore shit

[Verse3](Kz)
Im extremly allergic when rappers tryna drop dope
your nowhere near good,so stop and lose that false hope
Lemme rock your world,promnight is where you best headed
Still a virgin tryin to getnailed ? i know ur still at it
It will only take me a second to sense a pure wackness
Adjust your brightness,im known as the spit of darkness
Dont completly lacked the whole idea cos ill leave you brainles
Sounds cocky-ay?this is how they sound tryna get famous
I blow flows into bricks,structure an incredible verse
and Im the first to know that wackness is a greatest curse
Dont ever let me crack,im bringin you the no one call
Im completely destroying fake raps,ayo its time to fall

[Chorus] (Deadsy)
Now eveybody speakin about how you gona fail and fall
U just woke up from a dream and here's nightmare for you all
now everybody lay down and listen to brunei rapcore shit

Stories of my college life.

2006-12-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

I made this track back when i was still in college. For the love and hate of the people there. I miss igs and im always sure about one thing, they do well even without me. This is the song i performed right before i quit igs. I performed this song with 2 of my other frens, nukky and wafi. wasnt the best show but it was funny. Oh yeah, we called ourselves the Igs Soulz (lol) I only have my verse so here it is. miss you guys, one day ill try finish this song on my own. much love and respect <3o7> if you wanna listen to this song, you can check it at: Raphiology Music

[Intro]
Im sure u guys wanna hear about our shcool life,
how we used to laugh, how we used to care each others..
and how the atmosphere of igs college used to be.

Check it out..

(Raf Verse 1)
We used to be one and now we are like scattered glasses
The first time i felt like that,ya'll smoke it and leave ashes
I dont know why and how it happened,they just hate my presence
When they speak of lies,they mention my name in the same sentence
Sometimes i just kinda miss how we used to laugh
And when the joke is over,just take things easy and be tough
I hardly see them with the bottom line on eyes exam
They sleep the whole night,when i cant even write one program
And it humours me when the girls go out with different folks
Another weeks another folks,the same lines and the same talks
There's this guy, some call him the handsome dwarf
5 foot tall and he claimed to be 6",wannabe handsome smurf
Maybe i just got something for nothing,shorty wanna grow taller
They stand next to their girlfriends, seeing shoulders.
Now Im tellin ya'll that a soldier cant teach maths
What they do is sit there,teach this teach crap and teach that

[Chorus : wafi]
My school - where everything is everything and u know what
My school - where evertyhing is everythign in ur heart
My school - that one place where friendship is priority
and i respect all my frens and thats what im gonna do

(Nuk Verse 2)

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[Outro]
Thats all for tonight..

This song goes to all my frens in igs
when we'are not around,u know the souls always stay in ur heart. ;)

Earth girls are weak so just lean on me. gegege

2006-12-12T01:24:00.000+08:00

I know it sounds cocky or some shit but what the hell. so here it is, i never really get the recording done. maybe one day hmm..when im not too busy pimpin..jk. well im not really going to blog, im just going to post what im not really good at, writing.

- Lean on me -

Now girl just lean on me,one average emcee about to spit heavy
Nobody's gonna hurt you,cos a guy like me play slow and steady
If you feel outcasted,isolated just take caution
The next thing u know,u cant live without me im just like ur ration
You drop 50,if your lucky youre gonna get twice the price
Its all about pleasure and pain and i haf the feeling ure gona get it twice
Im the gentleman type of guy,i push it when they pull
And im not that guy who walks down the street sayin "this is whatsup fool"
Now girl cmon this is how we do it,leave all that sad stories behind
They say love is blind,without me girls cant perfectly shine
Im not saying earth girls are weak,all i have to do is be there
Lean on me i know u haf so much things to tell and share
Im the hardest man in town,the only last one standing
You thought you had enough of fun,where all the fun missin
Go check when the charm release, i spit it out like this
From battlin love to giving it up,let em know that this hardest man lives

Cmon boys. just say... lean on me,
When ur not strong ill be ur man

I strongly suggest u give everything to me now
Lemme take care all ur problems and u dont have to know-how
Them chicks do admit, when they talk to me they stutter
Im the answer for ur next chapter,but yo things never get any better
So bring ur suitcase along when u meet me,we'r going for a ride
Leave a note "im leaving, its ok raf's going to treat me right"
The kind of person who made a decision and doesnt look back,hey thats me
The one who talks and make it happen,yeah thats me
you think that in this world there's only you and that's it/
Thats like rapping and the only thing u do is scream cos u cant spit
And for as much as u complain to me,im loving it
Its plain truth,the only thing ppl care is who u down with
Im the hardest man in town,the only last one standing
You thought you had enough of fun,where all the fun missin
Go check when the charm release, i spit it out like this
From battlin love to giving it up,let em know that this hardest man lives

Cmon boys. just say...
When ur not strong ill be ur man

Cmon girls, lay your head back lemme explain my policy
I only take pretty,rich,cute, yummy and busty
If you wanna play hard-to-get on me, play harder
Feed me your troubles, pretty girls like you should be with me forever
I got used to the felling of falling,but u'll never see girls following
Love is short,ull see me again between rejecting and hurting
Dont hand me your heart, just credit me with your lips
Dont get me wrong, im not an anti-lover, sweet talkers are just cheap
Kz right here is about to pull your pants down and now chill
I wont mess up your night, like stupid lovers with no skill
A guy like me needs a girl like you on average nights
Its when karma hits the sutra,2lovers get the knowledge right
Im the hardest man in town,the only last one standing
You thought you had enough of fun,where all the fun missin
Go check when the charm release, i spit it out like this
From battlin love to giving it up,let em know that this hardest man lives